dear vicki

hey vicki. i hope you are somewhere you are happy and warm and full. i think about you everyday. i wonder if you think of me too. i wonder how lonely you were and i think about how lonely i was too but i never reached out to you. Remember when we were kids? I hope grandma is making you dumplings and telling you to pick up after yourself and putting rollers in her hair and falling asleep sitting up. please know that you are missed and i love you so much. i got a tattoo vicki, it's an octopus. i thought of you. it was my first time scuba diving and i saw an octopus, it could have been a squid but who knows. i love it and i thought of you and i thought you would love it too. i wish i had something of yours. anything. a stupid shirt or a hat or something. i looked on your Facebook page this morning, people love you so much. nobody hates you, they understand and they miss you. life goes on but they still think about you and i love that. i still cry when i think of you. i love you so much. i miss you. your cousin