my hands shook that day because i needed to take a simple math test. it was on conversions. simple metric system stuff. but my hands shook. because i had just hit strike one. this was potentially my strike two and i do not do well with strikes. so the rule is this. i am in nursing school and a requirement is to pass a math test, if not you are kicked out and unable to reapply. SO. i was on strike one out of three strikes i think.
i sat in front of that test and was disturbed how aloof i was. my laziness always consumes me.
so i focused.
the night before i thought about what my life would be if i worked this hard just to be kicked out of the program. what would be my career path? i have not even thought of a plan b. i never anticipated needing a plan b and that disturbed me even more.
so i started thinking of a plan b, and i could not. i did not want a plan b this is THE plan it has to work
the point is this,
though out this program i have learned many things
the thing i have learned out of everything is, i am not smart. hard lesson learned
you passed, right? i dont think you give your self enough credit! honestly. i will find out in april if i passed the esl test. imagine if i dont pass? that means, i dont know my own language enough to pass a test about it. god i hope i pass.
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